Well, lets see, 2 months and a bit since last I blogged.
Why?
Well, I am not so much of an extrovert that I think people care to read my thoughts, nor does it seem that people do as there are no comments attached to them.
So, I joined this one free dating site and found that there were several (about 6 actually) ladies interested in a guy like me, from Northern New York to South Carolina I found gals that emailed me out of the blue from 32 years old all the way up to 57. Of course, as my heart still belongs to P, though she trample it in the dust, that did me no good... I did meet one of these gals face to face, and was going to meet another, but realized it was pointless. I mean, these ladies are looking for real relationships and as my heart is not free right now, what could I give them? Sure, they knew that because of my profile about myself, but I am sure they were each thinking that maybe she was the one for me and I for her otherwise why waste the time?
So, I figure I am off the market. Deleted my profiles on the dating sites I was on and will just try to figure out how I will live now that there is no P for me.
I know I had figured it out before she came into my life, but she made it so nice, she made every day so much more beautiful for me... I have gotten used to having that and now it is gone, so I have to discover how to live without it anew.
How many of you have had the experience of being out in nature, observing the raw beauty of a mountain stream or perhaps a pouring down rain shower, maybe just watching as little fish hunted littler fish, with the one you love at your side, then you say something to them, they reply with a thought of their own, and suddenly, BLAM! Their thought opens up a whole new way of looking at things for you?
Can you imagine this? Is this common place? I don't know. What I do know is that I have been in love before and have never had that happen until P. Now that will never happen for me again... well, it is like loosing half of the world. Maybe it would have been easier to lose one eye than it has been to lose her.
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